Wow we have been given a gift today. I have been asking for more time to do this and that. And here it is. Now what do I do with that? Be careful what you wish for it may be starring you right in the face. You thought you would be ready for it when it came ~but are you?
Many times I find myself wanting just a little more than what I have. If I had a few extra bucks I could do this. I could go and do that if I had the time. Well we all make choices. Good or bad.
Twenty four extra hours means that you have alot more choices to make. That can be good, that can be bad. Gifts are given often. We just need to view them as such... a gift. What are you going to do with your gift of twenty four?
Pondering...what a great word!
Friday, February 29, 2008
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Get It!? Get Me
Do you get me? Do you understand what I am all about? Do you even want to know?
In my journey lately I have been doing a lot of soul searching. Figuring what i am and where i want to be. I have always thought that i put myself out there for all to see. No fakes or phoneys. Then why is it that some don't get me? Do I portray differently to different people? Do I let people in equally?
In talking to a friend, I realize that i don't do that. Test the waters to see if the "me" is safe to show. Trust~that one word that can be taken and held dear or ripped right away in a moment. Something earned. Not too be taken lightly.
Just a thought!
In my journey lately I have been doing a lot of soul searching. Figuring what i am and where i want to be. I have always thought that i put myself out there for all to see. No fakes or phoneys. Then why is it that some don't get me? Do I portray differently to different people? Do I let people in equally?
In talking to a friend, I realize that i don't do that. Test the waters to see if the "me" is safe to show. Trust~that one word that can be taken and held dear or ripped right away in a moment. Something earned. Not too be taken lightly.
Just a thought!
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Smile I say!
Smile often, someone just might be falling in love with it. Words I can live by!
Enjoy the day.
Enjoy the day.
Monday, February 25, 2008
New Goals...resetting oneself
Well I am beginnig to learn that my goals are changing like I am changing. I feel that once a goal is achieved I need to set the bar a bit higher. This weekend I have obtained the 3 mile run and feel like I could go for miles more. What a high! Why wouldn't everyone want to feel this good? Why it take me so long to get here?
I know everyone has to get it into their head what they want and when they want it. I also know that I am going into my season; spring. The time I truely get excited for sun warm and rebirth.
Have you see it? Are you looking for it? Can you smell it? Day light is happening earlier. It is 630 at nite and it is still lite out. That gets me hyped! This is my time. I have made it through the darkness of winter and lived. I even got excited about that season too. I didn't let it get to me this year, well not too much at least.
My hopes to all that continue this journey with me is this...life is short. Laugh a little more. Tell those whom are in your life what they mean to you. Take chances go beyond your box. Give praise and thanks to the one who made you~you!
I know everyone has to get it into their head what they want and when they want it. I also know that I am going into my season; spring. The time I truely get excited for sun warm and rebirth.
Have you see it? Are you looking for it? Can you smell it? Day light is happening earlier. It is 630 at nite and it is still lite out. That gets me hyped! This is my time. I have made it through the darkness of winter and lived. I even got excited about that season too. I didn't let it get to me this year, well not too much at least.
My hopes to all that continue this journey with me is this...life is short. Laugh a little more. Tell those whom are in your life what they mean to you. Take chances go beyond your box. Give praise and thanks to the one who made you~you!
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Excuse Me....This is not about you
Remember I had said that people walk into your life of a reason, a season, and a lifetime. Sometimes we don't know what category they fit until time presents itself.
I use to think so narrow that it was all about me. It was my reason, season and lifetime. But what if it is not about me. What if Im their reason, season. Maybe I was there to make them think about things that they just couldn't do until I walked into their life. Wow, I thought what a gift I was given. The power to make someone reevaluate the whats and hows of their life. I use to feel that I didn't have the greatness, no that is not the word maybe the gift to make a difference. I lacked the self confidence in me. That too is changing on my journey.
Figuring out that it isn't all about me and being ok with that. That can sometimes be a bit of reality check in your face. But I continue to look at my glass half full. Be a pineapple if you will.
My future is paved and I just need to walk down the road. I am where I am suppose to be at this very moment. I continued to feel enriched by those who have entered my life. Welcome to my world, stay as long as you need too. Some for a moment and some for a lifetime. I am truely blessed.
I use to think so narrow that it was all about me. It was my reason, season and lifetime. But what if it is not about me. What if Im their reason, season. Maybe I was there to make them think about things that they just couldn't do until I walked into their life. Wow, I thought what a gift I was given. The power to make someone reevaluate the whats and hows of their life. I use to feel that I didn't have the greatness, no that is not the word maybe the gift to make a difference. I lacked the self confidence in me. That too is changing on my journey.
Figuring out that it isn't all about me and being ok with that. That can sometimes be a bit of reality check in your face. But I continue to look at my glass half full. Be a pineapple if you will.
My future is paved and I just need to walk down the road. I am where I am suppose to be at this very moment. I continued to feel enriched by those who have entered my life. Welcome to my world, stay as long as you need too. Some for a moment and some for a lifetime. I am truely blessed.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Letting Go
Wow that seems to be a new concept for me lately. Recently I have been forced to let a few things go in my life. It seems that once I figure things out and how my life needs to flow, something or someone comes into my world and makes me look in a different angle.
As you know I am a creature of habit, a girl with a schedule. I get into a groove and make things work. But what if the groove gets upset, no thats is not the word-rocked, nudged or jostle. Then where do I go. I have to reevaluate and go forward.
Letting go of some of my responsibilities of being a mother so that dad can be a father. It seems like a easy break, but is it? No it is letting go of that control thing that I have worked so hard to keep things organized and sane. Letting me feel that am off the clock for a brief moment, not that easy. Most would say enjoy the break, me time yea! I need too.
I need to have those things which I enjoy, readily available. When those me times present themselves so that I don't waste that precious time. Letting go is not always a bad thing. Growth and discovery, and maybe even grabbing hold of something or someone new. Not a bad thing at all.
As you know I am a creature of habit, a girl with a schedule. I get into a groove and make things work. But what if the groove gets upset, no thats is not the word-rocked, nudged or jostle. Then where do I go. I have to reevaluate and go forward.
Letting go of some of my responsibilities of being a mother so that dad can be a father. It seems like a easy break, but is it? No it is letting go of that control thing that I have worked so hard to keep things organized and sane. Letting me feel that am off the clock for a brief moment, not that easy. Most would say enjoy the break, me time yea! I need too.
I need to have those things which I enjoy, readily available. When those me times present themselves so that I don't waste that precious time. Letting go is not always a bad thing. Growth and discovery, and maybe even grabbing hold of something or someone new. Not a bad thing at all.
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
To chose or Not?????????
Choices we make them everyday. But what if we choose not to choose. Isn't that too a choice? I think so. What if we want to gather more information before we make a decision? That too is a choice.
I am learning to be more flexible and more open to seeing things differently. In my past it always seemed to be my way or the highway. I am finally figuring it out that that is not the best way to live. What if a different point of view is better than the one I am looking at? Then we come back to choices. We have more information to make a better desicions.
But yet in gathering more information, we could come to more reasons not to make any choices. To sit back and observe. Is it time to move or just take it all in? Trust in oneself. It doesn't let us down. We are were we are because we are suppose to be here. Acknowledge it and be at peace.
I am learning to be more flexible and more open to seeing things differently. In my past it always seemed to be my way or the highway. I am finally figuring it out that that is not the best way to live. What if a different point of view is better than the one I am looking at? Then we come back to choices. We have more information to make a better desicions.
But yet in gathering more information, we could come to more reasons not to make any choices. To sit back and observe. Is it time to move or just take it all in? Trust in oneself. It doesn't let us down. We are were we are because we are suppose to be here. Acknowledge it and be at peace.
Monday, February 18, 2008
Wow What a Difference
What a difference a vacation makes. I am just coming back from a 4 day world wind vacation in sunny Florida. I can honestly say that everyday was beautiful and warm. I did more nothing than anything and it felt great. Oh don't get me wrong everyday I ran or walked for miles. But I spent most of my time in the sun. Gathering the most important vitamin D which we all lack here in Michigan.
Oh I did miss quite a few of my closest (you know who you are). But it was great to not have a care in the world only to know when to flip.
As you know we stayed with my parents who proved that 60ish isn't old. Though I thought that mom should have joined us at the local tavern for ladies nite. Boy did we get an eyefull of cow country. We were much looked upon favorable since we did have all our teeth.
Not a care or worry was thought about. I come back to you much rested and relaxed. I hope to kindle this feeling-and watch it grow. Thanks again all who are in on my journey. I continue to keep a steady pace.
Oh I did miss quite a few of my closest (you know who you are). But it was great to not have a care in the world only to know when to flip.
As you know we stayed with my parents who proved that 60ish isn't old. Though I thought that mom should have joined us at the local tavern for ladies nite. Boy did we get an eyefull of cow country. We were much looked upon favorable since we did have all our teeth.
Not a care or worry was thought about. I come back to you much rested and relaxed. I hope to kindle this feeling-and watch it grow. Thanks again all who are in on my journey. I continue to keep a steady pace.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
PASSION....
As I ran this morning, I gave credit to all I have accomplished,God. He gave me the great ability to be passionate, in what I say, do and believe. Passion...
Have you found it; are you looking?
Have you found it; are you looking?
See Ya
I won't be writing in my blog for a couple of days for I will be soaking my body in the warm suns of Florida. This is a much needed R&R. My candle has be lit both ends and energies have been very high for me. I found myself thinking that the candle being lit is not always a bad thing. As long as the energy emitted is positive, it can be invigorating.
Too much energy and not sure what or where to go with that. The weather here has been much to be desired. And I feel like all my insides just want to run. I am going to take full advantage of the warm weather. What else is there to do at 4am when I know that my traveling companion will be sleeping? Oh don't you worry, Bonnie assures me we will be drinking margaritas on the beach and setting the timer when it is time to flip.
I am very excited to go and know that it will be short lived. Don't worry though I will think of you often and wish you all where there. But for now I am off. Stay warm.
Too much energy and not sure what or where to go with that. The weather here has been much to be desired. And I feel like all my insides just want to run. I am going to take full advantage of the warm weather. What else is there to do at 4am when I know that my traveling companion will be sleeping? Oh don't you worry, Bonnie assures me we will be drinking margaritas on the beach and setting the timer when it is time to flip.
I am very excited to go and know that it will be short lived. Don't worry though I will think of you often and wish you all where there. But for now I am off. Stay warm.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
It Shows...and looks good ON
As many of you know or are beginning to realize...Im growing. I am on a path of high energy and loving every minute of it. It is one thing to realize this for yourself but when others see it, it doubles in magnituted. I am speaking of those who see you or talk to you on a daily basis. The ones who wouldn't know if you change your hair or lost a pound. The ones who loves you no matter what you do or say, they just except you for you.
But what if that person notices the changing. All the hard work that you have been doing to put the "positive back in Polly". It is those times that sometimes mean the most. It is then when you feel like "hey I am changing" and it does show. Ah yea we should do all of this for ourselves but it is good when others realize it too.
Believe me when I say this...all this lifestyle change is not for others. It is definitly for me. Now I am beginning to see that I can not control the uncontrollable. I can control me. I can not make people love me. I can only love myself. Wow I am getting it. Slow but sure I am getting it.
To all who are standing by and supporting me and holding my hand, new and old, family and friends-I thank you and love you too. And the journey continues...
But what if that person notices the changing. All the hard work that you have been doing to put the "positive back in Polly". It is those times that sometimes mean the most. It is then when you feel like "hey I am changing" and it does show. Ah yea we should do all of this for ourselves but it is good when others realize it too.
Believe me when I say this...all this lifestyle change is not for others. It is definitly for me. Now I am beginning to see that I can not control the uncontrollable. I can control me. I can not make people love me. I can only love myself. Wow I am getting it. Slow but sure I am getting it.
To all who are standing by and supporting me and holding my hand, new and old, family and friends-I thank you and love you too. And the journey continues...
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
TGIT almost
Ten loads of laundry.................10 hours
Two more work days...................16 hours
getting kids ready...................36 hours
leaving on vacation to Florida.......PRICELESS
Two more work days...................16 hours
getting kids ready...................36 hours
leaving on vacation to Florida.......PRICELESS
Friday, February 8, 2008
One more Hour
Lately my candle has been burning at both ends. I wake up early to get all the necessaries done. And believe me when I say I got it timed to the second. If all goes as schedule it all fits in. But what if things don't go as the norm? A snow day, a sick child or an unexpected phone call that was surprisingly welcomed that lasted two hours.
Then Denise needs to flex alittle. I know what alot of you are saying flex and Denise just don't go in the same sentence. Well that is one of those things that I am working on. One of my works in process. I have said often and out loud I am going to do what makes me happy. I have come to realize that it takes time and work for happiness. It just doesn't happen. Just like all good things that are worth anything. Nuture and love, time and tending.
So what do we give up? Work things,God time, family time or me time. All are very important. But where can we give? I find myself mulitasking. And then again I find me multitasking the mulitasks. Then life starts to get crazy and I just have to say STOP! Reevaluate what is important and what matters. Stop and just breathe. If we only had more time? It just wouldn't matter. We would fill that up and ask for more. Cherish your 24. They just might be your last. And I sure don't want people to be saying at my funeral "she had the cleaniest house I ever did see."
Then Denise needs to flex alittle. I know what alot of you are saying flex and Denise just don't go in the same sentence. Well that is one of those things that I am working on. One of my works in process. I have said often and out loud I am going to do what makes me happy. I have come to realize that it takes time and work for happiness. It just doesn't happen. Just like all good things that are worth anything. Nuture and love, time and tending.
So what do we give up? Work things,God time, family time or me time. All are very important. But where can we give? I find myself mulitasking. And then again I find me multitasking the mulitasks. Then life starts to get crazy and I just have to say STOP! Reevaluate what is important and what matters. Stop and just breathe. If we only had more time? It just wouldn't matter. We would fill that up and ask for more. Cherish your 24. They just might be your last. And I sure don't want people to be saying at my funeral "she had the cleaniest house I ever did see."
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Addictive isn't It?
The alarm goes off at 4am. Ahhhhhhhhh do I really want to get up? I stayed up too late. I lay back trying to justify 50 reasons why I still need to stay in this warm cozy bed. I even goes as far to reset my alarm. You worked so hard, you deserve a day off. But then you start to think what if one day turns into two and so on. All you have accomplished has been for not.
Oh I will work out tonite. But you know that you are not an afternooner or eveninger for that matter. You know when you are at your best. After almost 10 months on this journey, you know you the best. Acknowledge it and embrace it. The rewards are set and you stand in line to receive them. Addiction it isn't always a bad thing. Have a happy workout. Enjoy the blessings.
Oh I will work out tonite. But you know that you are not an afternooner or eveninger for that matter. You know when you are at your best. After almost 10 months on this journey, you know you the best. Acknowledge it and embrace it. The rewards are set and you stand in line to receive them. Addiction it isn't always a bad thing. Have a happy workout. Enjoy the blessings.
Saturday, February 2, 2008
To know me is to love me?
But what about... To Love me is to know me? I think that better suits me. Taking time to figure what I am about? What I believe? What makes me go hmmmmmmmmm? Writing this journal I feel many are getting to know a little more of what Denise is about. Writing this journal... Denise is figuring out what Denise is about. Welcome to my world. Stay for a reason a season or a lifetime. The choice is yours.
Boundries
I woke up the thought of boundries. The physical ones and the mental ones. The ones we place on others and the ones we have for ourselves. I have always thought of them as holding me in and not allowing me to grow or go beyond. But what if you have grown beyound your boundries? Is it that simple to just write some new ones?
Physical boundries, sure I had those limits. I know that I can do this. But what if we go to the lines and feel we can break through it. Do we? I have been coming to some of my physical boundries. I would have never consider myself a runner. I would listen to all those stories of those so called runners and say there is no way that I would want to do that. Im perfectly fine walking. But what happens when the walking just doesn't cut it anymore. We feel the need to up the anty. Is it ok to re work the boundries? Yea we may feel the hurt because we pushed beyond the comfortable and into unknown waters. Maybe we push ourselves a bit to far because we are working on setting the new lines in which we fit. But how far do we push? When we feel it a little and it is a bit uncomfortable, is it time then to rewrite those lines?
Now what about our personal lines? The ones that where instilled when we where born. The ones we where taught by mom and dad and all those who love us. Do we feel we have the right to rewrite those? Well I am finding on my journey that yes I do need to re write those. For I am not the same Denise I was 1year 2 and even 5 years ago. Oh how I have changed. Lines I am coming up too and wondering is it time to go through. And oh yes boundries are there for a reason to keep in and protect us. But is it stopping us also from growth? Or even letting something or someone in? How far can we stretch those lines before we feel comfort to let go of what was and realize what is. Letting go of the past and looking forward to the future. Look at your boundries...Is it time to stretch?
Physical boundries, sure I had those limits. I know that I can do this. But what if we go to the lines and feel we can break through it. Do we? I have been coming to some of my physical boundries. I would have never consider myself a runner. I would listen to all those stories of those so called runners and say there is no way that I would want to do that. Im perfectly fine walking. But what happens when the walking just doesn't cut it anymore. We feel the need to up the anty. Is it ok to re work the boundries? Yea we may feel the hurt because we pushed beyond the comfortable and into unknown waters. Maybe we push ourselves a bit to far because we are working on setting the new lines in which we fit. But how far do we push? When we feel it a little and it is a bit uncomfortable, is it time then to rewrite those lines?
Now what about our personal lines? The ones that where instilled when we where born. The ones we where taught by mom and dad and all those who love us. Do we feel we have the right to rewrite those? Well I am finding on my journey that yes I do need to re write those. For I am not the same Denise I was 1year 2 and even 5 years ago. Oh how I have changed. Lines I am coming up too and wondering is it time to go through. And oh yes boundries are there for a reason to keep in and protect us. But is it stopping us also from growth? Or even letting something or someone in? How far can we stretch those lines before we feel comfort to let go of what was and realize what is. Letting go of the past and looking forward to the future. Look at your boundries...Is it time to stretch?
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