Out Look Bright!

Well the summer is full swing. Things are all starting to come together. Realizing to take one day at a time. Lists and lists started, sometimes there is a end to the list, sometimes not. Some just get transferred on the next list. Relearning what it means to partner with another. It is a great feeling to know that some things still can get accomplished as I run or do another errand. That is a good feeling. We work well together. Marrying someone with similar goal but with enough diversity that makes it not mundane.
Wedding plans are coming together. Plans of how it should be are changing and that is ok. Learning to bend and still not break. Growing in areas I never thought I could or would want too. The extended family coming together with some rough times but for the most part realizing that they need to bend also to make it work.
Running is still there but not to the extent of last summer. But then again I had different priorities. That is ok too. There was a lot o ME last summer. I needed that, but now I have to share the lime life with all in my nest. That is ok too. Time and place for everything. Now it is time for my new family. But wait, not going to lose self this time. I think I learned that lesson in the past 8 years or so. Be a nurturing mother but don't lose me in the process. Going to God with that one. Time has made me see the light on that one. You know I wouldn't change a thing looking back. I truly believe that I had to go threw what I did to know God the way I do. I wouldn't change the journey I am on. The saying that there is a reason, a season and a lifetime is so true. Sometimes we get the satisfaction to know the reason, sometimes not. I was granted the gift of knowing. That is the reason that I can be ok with all in my world right now. A good feeling. Feeling alive and ready for now and the future. That too is a great feeling.

WhatYou've Been Up Too?

Well, a few of my followers have been wondering "What Up?" Exactly What is up? This summer has been crazy. Has summer even started? These cold nites and semi warm days, just doesn't seem like summer just yet. I am hoping for a long fall.
Well life on this side is still quite busy. My boys both are on a winning All Star team. We all went to see the games this past weekend while attending a family reunion up North. It was hectic but nice to know after the game that we could go back to the camp ground and head to the beach and we did. It was strange not having the boys at the reunion but that was the choice that they had to make. Casey and Joe kids where there and that was a little easier. Casey had a blast with her girl friend. I think that "teenager" is now in the vocabulary. Good to know that she is growing up and bad to know she is growing up. What I liked the most is that it was about Casey this time. The boys and their activities always seem to take precedence. This weekend Casey did what Casey wanted to do. That is good.
This weekend was also good to see how me and Joe work as a team not in our environment. We did pretty good. A few lessons learned. He definitely does fine when it comes to socializing. Don' t have to carry him there. Not the quiet one if you know what I mean. That is good. We work well together.
This week brings more working on the wedding. The dress is in and the ring too. Need to get shoes but need to take Casey for that one. Still have to go to more All Stars games. Hoping for a win today because if they don't need to take more time off work. Who starts a game at 5, in a different town. Well thank ful that my work will work with me when it comes to getting time off for family stuff.
Well Im rattling on. And now you can see how my head has been working for the last couple of months. Crazy I tell you. Going to work sometimes is the best thing for me because I know exactly what I am doing at any given moment. Not so sure when it comes to my life.

Parenting Hard

Lost it last nite. Kids have been staying home and I thought learning responsibilities. Guess not. Have you ever felt like you have been taken for granted? Especially by someone whom say they love you.
Parents work. That is just how it is. And you can argue the fact about working parents and the ones who stay home with their kids. Well I have been on both sides of the fence. I see both sides and one is no easier than the next. The kids are no better or worse for it. But when you are on one side, easier to see how the kids are affected. How the kids can play that situation. Easy to see how the divorce can work for them and see how they can play on the guilt of the parent who works. Well the sh#@ it the fan last nite. I will not be played. In this house, we all pull our weight. One chore a day is not asking too much. I don't care how the other side rolls. When at my house this is what we do. These are my rules and this is how I see things.
Seems pretty harsh. No I don't think so. It wasn't as bad as I write. But they did need to see that I mean what I say. And it wasn't just one day it was a series of days. So I don't need any lectures on child raising at this time. I just needed to vent. That is all. So it is done. I plan to spend some quality time with the kids today. Let them see that I can be "fun" mom. I laugh as I say that because they are going to work with me and I am cleaning their teeth. What more fun can you ask for?