Only What You Can Handle

I have heard in a sermon that fear is the opposite of faith. Does that mean don' t worry? I know I shouldn't. God has my back always. Then why do I worry? Is it because my needs may not be met at my time? Not God's time. I guess that is what I am dealing with now. Not my time, God's time. Not my way-God's way.
Hard one to learn. I do believe that the plan is all laid out. Trying to see the good in all things when sometimes that is blinded. Wondering why things happen the way they do. To work on faith? To work on leaning on others? To work on building a relationship that was not that developed? To discover one's own strengths and weaknesses? Wondering why?
Pondering back to my road, been through a lot. Days went by when I never thought the heart ache would never end. Then it did. Wondering did I learn what I was suppose too? Did I pass some sort of test? No I went to my God and laid it all on his feet. I found out that I am nothing with out him.
When the road gets bumpy and you don't think you can walk another step-give it to God. And I am!