Too Much? Or Long Over Due?

Well my mental goal for the new year is starting this weekend. I will be taking a weekend course at Delta college. I will be learning to anesthetize patients. Not really looking forward to this one. It has been over 20years that I have been in a class room. Oh yea I go to the 12 hours for lectures that I have to do to keep my licence. But not where we have to actually work on patients or take a board in Lansing. Ugh!
Worried in many ways. Knowing that this is something that I knew I would have to do in the long run. Been putting it off for a long time. Decided it was time. Thought since I am doing this over haul in my life, no time like the present.
Wondering this morning as my body hurts (did a hour and half) training session in the gym last nite, which goal of mine will hurt the worse? Feel the best when completed? Feel to the core in the middle of doing it.
When I started the new year I never really thought about what I was doing. I sign up for the mental challenge in the fall of last year because that is when the course was offered. I signed up for the Understanding God course last fall but realized that was too much to do after being newly married. So this was the next session, the spiritual. As for the physical, I knew I didn't want to run 26 miles( no offense Darrin), but to swim a little and bike and run. Well that sounds like a winner. So Sept 11 a sprint triathlon is set. Yes that is our 1st anniversary and we are doing it together. No competition there.
So there are days like today that I can't sleep and I wonder if I bit off more than I can chew. Then I wonder if I wasn't pushing myself a little more to get where I need to be? Hmm just a thought. Outside the box? Oh yea WAY!

Purpose Driven Life hmmm

Interesting week to say the least. Much soul searching with my patients. I have begun to take a new approach in my work. I am seeing new ways for seeing many things. I have been sharing a bit more of who I am and what I am going through. I am taking time to get in their heads too. Interesting that most just need an ear. Cleaning many times is just the icing on the cake.
Today I ran across a man who didn't believe in the after life. I listen to his thoughts. I did share with him that I was taking a course at my church called Understanding God. By the end of the appointment, he said that when he returns in the summer he would like a synopsis about what the course was and what I had learned. Seeds again and I will plant them.
Fine line about what you talk to your patients...hmm but look at all the crap they put on the TV and radio. A matter of opinion I think. You can' t listen too a christian station but you can listen do how someone smokes crack. This world just doesn't make any sense. Becoming more and more apparent to me. Choices- we all have them and we all need to make them for ourselves and what we know to be the truth.
I have been dwelling for the last couple of years with where is my purpose. What I am suppose to do to make the difference? Could it be in "just cleaning teeth"? I didn't think so . I always thought I was meant to do something else. Something more worth while. But what, where and when. Never really realizing that I now am doing good work. I don't need to stand out just to stand out. I need to stand out only for him. In standing out for Him, He will show the way to many I come in contact. I think I am starting to get it. I am a good mom. I am a good hygienist. I have purpose. That is a good thing to realize. The funny thing is that
I am the only one that needs to know this.

Looking at New Goals for a New Year

Well I am trying to create a few new goals in my life. I have quit working at weight watchers for the love just wasn't there anymore. Too many were not seeing the value in themselves and it was always in the scale. Believe me, I was there too. But we need to go beyond. Weight is a number and we are more than that. It is too hard to achieve that all so perfect number and not stray away from that. Oh don't get me wrong, I am not giving up. It will be a lifelong journey for me. I know that. But realizing that this is my life and if I want that cookie it is ok. Just can't eat the whole box. Then I need to go and do something about the cookie. Moderation is key people. Calories in is calories out.
Reading a great book. So many of the 'so call foods' out there are making us FAT! I knew for a long time that the diet in the pop could not be good. It is man made. It is not natural. I have made a decision for my house. I will continue to read labels. I will do it more. I have always choose fresh and I am determined even more to do so.
In reading this book, I have realize- to do all that is suggested would take a lot of time, energy and money. So I am trying to eliminate a little by little. I have plans to cut what I buy at the local chain food store. I have decided I will have to stop a couple times a weeks at the local produce store. Buy the veggies that are half way to the trash can be used in the next couple of days for our dinner. I don't have to buy the half ripe anything because it won't be sitting in the crisper drawer for a week or two only to be thrown out.
I am excited about my thoughts on nutrition. Not to mention I have a lot to talk to you about when it comes to my physical new out look and my spiritually ones. But that is another day. Just to let you know I am here. I am not going away or even fading away.

Early Morning Thoughts

Figuring it all out. Hard to do. Did I tackle too much at one time? Is all I have set for dinner too much on my plate? Trying to find the 24th and half hour. So many things I want to push for- to go beyond my comfort zone. Giving my permission to go ahead til it hurts, maybe. Saying NO. Feeling ok with that? Organizing so I don't take away but offer more. Changing so that they take a second glance or give it a thought. Praying that it is the change that I want to see in others. Stopping the guilt before it consumes me or at least prevents me from accomplishing. Walking away from all the drama that this world provides. Last and not least, smell the roses that I am given every day.

Jouney On!!!!

Not forgotten. I have been on a thinkin kick. Trying to find time to write it all down. Stretching beyond my box both mentally, physically, and spiritually. Exhausted...Hmmmm not sure I have had the time to even consider that? Will update you when I know where I stand. Prayers I need them. Once again the journey continues!

The Reason???

Was out and about with the hubby yesterday trying to get all the loose end tied up. I think we did it. Shopping is fun but when it is with a whole lot of people who don't know what they want or don't want to be there at all...well frustrations sets in.
We had a plan and we had the list and off we went. I think it was a success. The people who wear pj bottoms out in the public is widespread. I think we seen every walk of life. For the most part the cashiers where cheery but I think alot of that had to do with Joe. He somehow has a way of making one smile. It could be a comment or one of his all time" funny jokes." It was good though. I think we needed one on one time to connect. It was nice to come home and just be. Today will begin with a walk with the Lord and then wrap it all up.
Next is the grocery shopping. I am hoping to get that in today. Work for the next two days and then relax well I hope for that. I pray that the kids are not disappointed. It gets harder as they get older. Thankful for the "stuff" we can provide and hopeful that it is not what they base their life on!

Reminding us

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