And Let the Fun Begin!

Well here it is...vacation day. Boy and I had three very happy kids last nite. Me not so much, worried of course. Why do we do that? Why can't we act like children?

Well I wake up with definite direction...to have fun and not worry. I am going to enjoy my kids and my parents. It is a time to laugh and rejoice for all I have. Thankful to God for all he has given to me.

Oh I won't forget you and I will think of you often as I am drinking margarita poolside. Call me and text often (thank god for unlimited). Good way to memorize my one year anniversary into my journey, I think. Rejoice and be glad.

Thanks to all who have been on this journey since day one, to those who enter mid stream, and to all the new ones I have not yet met. I am truly blessed to know and love you.

Not sure if I will be bloggin on vacation, probably so check it out and feel free to comment. (I so love them). If I die tomorrow, know that you are loved and cherished. And I don't have a clean house...sorry Sheri what are big sisters for?

A day and A Wake Up!

Wow-can you believe that the time is here already. Off on vacation again. Many saying to me-not too sure why your going or how are you able to even go again. Well I talk often about you only going around once and you better be doing all you want.

Well this one is not all about me. My kids who need a vacation too. A time when mom is not all business. Am I ever all business? I think not. As the kids get older, I find myself joking with them more. They seem to get it a little better. Dance nite in the kitchen at dinner time to the song Low Low comes on, it's a crack up. They seem to think that mom just doesn't have it. I can bust a move with the best of them baby! Question-at what point do we realize we don't have it? Because I think I have it and always will, cool mom if you will.

My kids over nite seemed to somewhat grow up. Asking some very adult questions and expecting answers. When did that happen? Am I ready to answer them. Heck I asking the same questions again to myself? It makes me laugh a bit, and I m the parent. I don't have a clue of where I am going and I am expected to guide three inquisitive minds forward? Now that is funny. Life is all about having and keeping a sense of humor.

I am now excited to go. It seems these vacations are the best. Oh and a tottie at 4 will also help. Say a prayer for a safe return and I am only a phone call away. I will return more relaxed and rested. Luv ya!

Ice It

Well for the first time in my blogging history, I put a entry on ice. It was something that I needed to write but not quite ready to share. Afraid of the imput by others maybe. Not ready to put it out there and admit it, maybe. Having the ability to work it out on paper and deal with it is maybe all I need to do. So my faithful readers I have not forgot about you. But the last one wasn't about you. Nothing you had to learn from or ponder. Just about me, myself, and I. What a concept! If you would have asked me about that eariler in life I would have said I just don't matter that much. But in my journey I realize that I do matter and I have something of value to say.

Who would have thought? Denise~very strong, important person. Something of value to say. Self esteem has grown. I am very thankful to all that have seen me through this journey that I am on. By no means is it ending but I am reaching a year anniversary. Time to reflect. Evaluate. Ponder where I go from here.

Am I where I want to be? Am I doing all I want to do? Am I happy? Do I make a difference in others life? If I die tomorrow, will they say "Boy she had a clean house?" Sorry for that one, few will get it.

Live.Laugh.LOVE. I want to be known for that!

Control or not... What was the ?

Life just seems to be flying by. Thinking, a few of my friends says that I have been thinking too much. How do you do that? And the alternative...too little that can't be good? Or can it?

Sometimes I would not like to think that i have the world on my shoulders. I would like someone else say hey this is what we are going to do and this is what we are going to eat. Someone to share in the joys and the burdens of everyday life. But then I have to give up a little control. Whoa who wants to do that? Not me? I have worked so hard to get it and now to let it go a bit, hmmmmmmm not so sure.

I need a vacation! But that is only temporary. Quickly everyday life comes back and all that was a problem still is. But than all the good is still is too. Focus~Denise. If we want to see bad it can be found and that goes the same with good. It is time to get back to what matters. Knowing your a good mom, and friend. Realizing that life has it ups and downs and if we don't view both we would not be able to rejoice when its good. Taking for granted, that there always is a silver lining...hoping! Not forcing anything and patiently waiting.

Continuing on the journey that I have started with new purpose. Resetting and restarting. Not viewing it as a failure but a detour. Moving forward at my pace.

Communication...Way!

It is the difference between ordering a ham sandwich and getting a Jam sandwich. And what a dissappointment that would be. As it goes in the Gyurich house hold, we can talk and do we ever. But I am talking about the meat and potatoes of it all. Do you really get what I am saying to you. Do you really care? Well most of the time it is just filler but lately I have been trying to get you to know what I am about and where I want to be. Communicating about what makes me tick. I too am even surprised of what comes out. Thoughts, feelings and ideas of where I want to be and with thom i want to share it all with.

Growing if you will. I visited with family yesterday and in talking I was wowed to find that others are surprise that I run. I know that I m surprised. but to see others share the journey and even help foster it. Way cool.

Back to communication. Finding that it is up to me to make that happen. It is up to others to see it thru. If I am not saying what I mean and meaning what I say then shame on me. We only go around once and do we want it to be viewed underwater? I think not. So many things get turn up side down when we assume others. Making it clear. So important to me. If you don't get me~ask. Chances are I will explain if I can. If I can't I will need to ponder more and get back with you. If I don't~ask again! I may be just avoiding.

Do you want to know me, love me, cherish me...than ask!

Waking Up Thankful

Sleep lately seems to elude me. For me spring is a time of rebirth, refresh and renew. It seems so much easier to get excited about the day when the sun is shining or for me it isn't at 4am but there is the hope that seems to get me thru.

Thankful is a great feeling to wake too. The simple things as your kids coming home to you and thanking you just because. Saying I love you first and meaning it. What did I do to deserve this? Mom of the year oh I lost that months ago. Why all the goodness in my life? Is it in the attitude I portray? Is it the positive that I am trying to strive for ever day? The high energy that has seemed to have made a permanent house in me? Do people see it and are they drawn to it? Crave it? I hope so.

Looking back was all my doom and gloom about me? Did I bring it on? Did I foster it and nourish it? I think so. Ah don't get me wrong I would have blamed anyone else for it and I did. But now shoe being on the other foot~do I want to give some one else credit for the greats in my life? The positives and kudos all around me. One comes mind~God. Couldn't have done it with out him. Would have tried but failed miserably. I am finding that it goes so much better when we allow God to be there. Oh go ahead and try it. Once again choices we all have them.

So I am challenging you today to be thankful for what you have. Tell those how you feel, and mean it. Smile because you don't know who may be falling in love with it. We only go around once. Make a mark in someones life.

Happy Easter everyone! Hugs and Kisses goes out.

Did You Ever Think?

Sitting back just chillin. Did you ever think that your life would be here? Almost 40yrs and I never would have dreamed I would be HERE. I had many different dreams of where I wanted to be. But looking now I can't imagine my life the way I thought it should have been. I am so better because of choices I made, forced to make or those who made them for me. Feeling good where I sit. Comfortable in one's own skin. Don't think I had that.

More pondering. Gotta Run...literally!

Finding the Fit!

Do you ever wonder where you fit in ones life? It seems to me that the minute you figure where you stand, someone moves. Why, what happened, what changed? It seems that the world is finally ok and then it hits. Something comes up and forces us to move, to think, to evolve. But what if we where content? Are we forced to look at the rode differently? Do we even want too? Will it bite us if we don't?

Running today much rambled thoughts. The good, the bad and the ugly! It is all there. If we choose to acknowledge~that is a different story. Deal or no deal, we have the power to choose or not. Stand and find out or simply walk away. Does that make us less?

Friends Forever...As If?

After getting through my second 4 mile run for the day, I thought much about friends. (What else do you do with all this new found energy but run again with a friend of course). I have been reminded by friends that some feel that they don't know where they fit. I believe that if you are here for my lifetime, you really don't need to find the fit you just are.

The reasons, seasons applies to this. Friendship moments come and go. At certain times we cling to those whom we need most. Running for me at the moment is a passion I can not go without,there fore I am cling to my running friends. But in no sense for the words should my walking friends feel at all slighted. Just because what was once so very importand is not now, you still mean the world to me.

We are in a constant change and if not we should be. Trying to figure out where we fit. What about if the fit has or is changing? Do we change to stay within ones own world? Or do we take the back shelf knowing that the importance is still there but growing is taking place. Sometimes it is not all about you. Equal sharing of the spot lite is needed. At times we think that friendships are forever and then with one quick moment they are gone. No need to get sad, a purpose was served, a lesson learned and they had to go. There are very few that can stay forever. Some feel that they can't take that back seat to the new, and they are gone. In some way my world was touched, heighted and enhanced. A better me because of you. But they still needed to go.

Forever Friends; you know where you fit~thats a good thing!

Trust Gut....

Who in there right mind gets up at 4am and runs outside in Michigan in March. Well today that was me. What a day off and guilt will make you do. Did I say guilt, a wasted emotion I tend to say to others. But at times it makes us get off the couch and move. Whatever it takes I say.

Well starting to run after a brief stretch, felt good, in the groove. But coffee is a must the next time during the stretching phase. Headphones on and my running lite in tow. (thanks Geno) Not too much going on at 4am on a Wednesday, definitely no runners. I took a path that was very visible. I have often changed up my route and time that I run; safety first. Rounding the 2 and half mile it hit. I feeling that I have yet to experience in the run; scere panic. A car pulled in a parking lot and turned off the car and opened the door and waited. Now in the day lite no big deal but in the dark; just plain creepy. And there was gut! Highten alert! My heart began to race and my feet became very alive. What do I do if he comes towards me? Can I out run him? Where are my keys and would they cut? Believe me you think about all these things. As my pace got quicker and I faded into the dark I was relieved that gut was wrong this time.

But was it? Was that a warning or a seed if you will? Think about what you would do? Be aware of your surrounding. Always trust gut!

Then I begin to think 4 am is this a little border line obsessive? Is that even a bad thing? What makes us move? Many think that I am a little out there because of the times that I keep. But it works for me. It is what I do. And what a great feeling to be alright with me. Comfortable in my own skin. That' s a good thing!

Never Zero...

You know the people who walk into your life. The reasons the seasons and lifetimes. The ones who touch you in a way that only the two of you see and share. The ones you let in your heart and give the ability to stay there as long as they need, and to even crawl back when they need to if they decide to go.

Trust a very sacred issues with me. Not too be taken lightly or abused. Shame on you if you break it. It was a gift. One to cherish.

I acknowledge it and let it go. I refuse to hold on to broken edges.

I continue on with my journey more wise.

Metallica? Oh Yea.

Wow, I still can't believe it. My first official race done and I am already looking for the second and third. What a high. I seriously did not even race, I floated, drifted, and soared. I can 't begin to tell you that I felt all the love and support in every stepp I took. I did not only do my pace but I was in my mojo if you will. I ran for love of myself and what I have so far accomplished on my journey.

I did not even see too many faces watching but I know you where there. I knew a few in the physical, watching and cheering. Thank you. I knew you wouldn't miss it for the world for you share my journey. You watched the transformation happen and you supported it with open arms.

In the spirit, the ones who held me with your thoughts and prayer. Never in the race did I feel I can't do this or I have to stop to rest. The power of prayer can move mountains and it did. My kids where there in spirit and I have yea signs to prove it. Thank you.

Rachelle my coworker, my confidont. my friend. The one who reminds me daily "you are a runner". She hung with me the whole way. The eyes who would not allow failure. I am truely touched and thankful.

The most powerful moment in the race was what the title is...Metallica. The song title escapes me. Please comment to me the title if you would. But as I was nearing the finish line, seeing it before me, this song came on and it was the kick I needed. Sprint at the end if you got it a good friend once told me. Oh I had it and I gave it all its worth.

Powerful and meaningful, I will never forget this one. I have already won!

Unsure of Everything...U have Got To Be Kidding

Well day of race, and so much in running through my head. Did I prepared enough? Did I stretch? Am I in the right frame of mind? Do I even want to do this?

Scared of so many things. It is only a little 3mile race. What is the big deal? Well It is more than the race. It indicates the journey that I am on. The good, the bad and the ugly. In my running, I have thought alot of my journey. The fact is that a lot of what I write in played in my head when I run. Not sure of what to do~go for a run. Not sure of where I should be~go for a run.

It is quite ironic though. That where I stand today and the run being today~I have much to ponder in my personal life. Where am I going? Where do I want to be? Who do I want to share with and who do I want to walk away?

I want to thank all who have supported my running journey. To the one who forced me to do one more rep of weights, I thank you. To the one that said you need to go for a run~go, I thank you. To the one that said you are already a winner, I thank you. To the one that gave me the gift not to decide, I thank you. To my kids who had to wait to eat dinner because mom just had to run, I thank you. To all those who held me in there prayers~I thank you. To those who supported me from afar, I thank you.
To God whom I owe everything, I thank you.



I am ready. I am scared. I am nervous. I am ready!

So Happy where I sit

Wow to be content with life. To be happy where I sit if you will. What a wonderful feeling. To know that I make a difference in many lives that I have come to touch. That life is good if we let it. What a difference a day makes and so glad that I didn't give up.

Giving up oh ya I thought about it many times. It would have been so easy. Follow the path of least resistance and just get by. But is that even me? Nope. A friend told me long ago~the high road Denise. You always choose the high road. I m not so sure I did but it was the road that was right for me. And knowing that made all the difference.

Many choices to make and not sure when and if they are right? Got to love choices. Sometimes just waiting until the choices get eliminated one by one and that way we don't have to decide on quite so many. Then much pondering. Boy I do that one alot. Praying when it is not so obivious. Then the unanswered prays become my road. Sometimes leaving it at the alter is the best choice. Wouldn't you agree.

Insert One Foot

What about when you say too much? Thinking that you know someone and knowing that in the long run they need to hear what you have too say. Do they? from you? Who is to say that you have to be the one to say? Who gave you that privilege? When does it border on critical or just one of those things that you have noticed and you want the other party to be aware of.

Do we even have the right to let our little observation be known? If we are true to the friendship, I think we do. Constructive criticism if you will. What one sees looking on the side line. Making one be aware of the not so obvious.

Yea for me, criticism hard for me to handle but if I ponder long enough and consider the source in which it came~need to evaluate it. We all want to be better, look better and feel better. If someone who loves you see something worth taking a look~don't we owe that to them? I think so.

Oh much more pondering...

Five Days but Who's Counting

Well I'm standing at the door step of one of my goals that I have set. To run St Pat Race. It is only 5 days away and I have trained hard for it. I have ran 3 days consecutive of 4miles and knew i could;ve ran more. Feelings and emotions flow thru me as I run. If you knew my past I was not a runner. Would have laughed if someone told me that one day you will run. And love it to boot. No way.

Has it always been so simple to just set a goal and obtain it. Why now does that seem so simple. What happened? I know I wasn't strucked by lightening. Why now does everything seem possible?

Attitude! Pure and simple. Believe me~people see it too. They even can smell it. Attitude can make the difference in a look to a hello. I have witness it. If you don't have it, you get passed by everytime. I speak only of the positives though. Negatives, we won't even go there. I am trying to avoid that at all costs.


Asking you to think about your life goals~do they need some resetting? Attitude~do you have it? Positive energy~want to feel it? Yea I do. More pondering! Seems to be something I do best!

Should I Stay ....Go?

Oh, how many times we think this; I've stayed to long. Knowing when the time is right to leave. That is the tricky thing. I think I know when, when it is albout me. When my needs have been meant and lessons learned. But what about when it is not about me? Do I wait ample time to make sure others have learned all they needed to? Is it even my job to know when that time is?


Reasons, seasons and lifetimes, I talk of them often. I get that. But what if the ones in your life~don't. Do we stick around until they say "hey I got it, move on". What if we don't really want to go yet? We found a comfort that we haven't felt in a long time. Is it ok to just hover there? Is it doing any good for us or even the person who needed to get something out of us?

Much to ponder. Looking for the signs. Knowing when the time is right. When to walk away and know it will all be ok. Some of the hardest things for me.

Call Me A Blogger

Like that's a bad thing. I think not. For many years, I have been told by many people~journal. I use to think what good will that do? Write down all my thoughts, feelings hopes and dreams. And where does that get you? No where I thought. Wrong!

I have grown so much in writing this little diddy. I read quite a few of my loved ones everyday and see the growth and experiences that they are going through and it really makes you think~How would I do this or would I even do that?

I am also learning that I have a few faithful that follow my random thoughts. I admit that they are random at times. I think alot when Im running and when I first wake up. It is crazy what ones thinks at 4 in the am. But that is the time that I am at my best. The house is so quiet and peaceful. I somehow reset for the day. Recapping the day before and trying to make sense of it all. What I did good and what I wish I could go back and do all again.


Speaking of do over? Have you ever wished you could go back and redo that in which you have done? May be say something just a little bit differently. Who's to say that you can't? Sometimes a second explanation can make the world of difference.

Lately I have been saying what is on my mind to those who mean alot to me. Sharing how I view them and what they have come to be in my life. You just don't know when your time is up. I want show and tell those I love what they mean too me and my life is forever changed because they are in my life. Life is short! Are you happy? Are you where you want to be? Are you with the one you want to be with? Do they know it?

Random thoughts in my head. Peace and love.

When Doubt Creeps In

Lately, I have felt that I can do anything. Give me a challenge and Im your man. But what happens when "the what if's I can't come to play"? The hill that some how is viewed as a mountain. Is it that~or is it my view from which I stand?

That requires some thought. What if determination is not the only requirement to obtain a certain goal? Determination, yea I have it. But what about the things that I can not control? I have to let it go. Let it come to me, if you will.

Patience, not one of my strong points. Working on it. Very hard concept for me. Strong willed (some might call it bullheadedness), I like strong willed. I am not one who likes to wait for any thing. But sometimes waiting is the key for what is best for Denise. Don't settle for less because you just don't know that if you wait one more day the out come could be difference between getting a taste or eating the whole damn pie.

Good things are happening. They are all around me. I receive them and let them flow through me. I also try to give them back to others in my life. Strive for the positive. We choose what we receive. I choose living well.

Deep in Thought

Well I think that I am coming down from an oblivious high. I knew it would happen and I ran with it as long as I could. Why would you want that feeling to leave? Every thing was beautiful and bright and definitely no negatives.

Well not saying that I am entering into a negative phase, I am not. But I think it is time to step back and ponder choices~ones I have made and ones that are yet to be determined.

Clearly exercise and eating healthy is one of the for most. I believe this one has kept the positive energies going. I have seen a few bad habits start to creep back in. I acknowledge them as such and now I will reset and eliminate those.

Personal growth on where I am going and where do I want to be? I have some definite thoughts on where I see myself in a day, a month and a year. I have an idea of who and what I want in my life.

It all works out,for the best I might add. Once again we are all where we should be and with whom we should be with at this very moment. Embrace those and thank them for being there. (To those who are in my life, thank you and I wouldn't have wanted any other way!) Learn from what they say and do. It is a give and take.

I continue to stay the course in which I started eleven months ago. Growing stronger physically, mentally and spiritually. You have been invited~grow with me.

No I m not an Insomniac!

Well a few of my faithful readers have commented on the time in which I write my blog. No I don't get up at 1 or 2am and think I need to write in my blog. Getting up at 4am to work out is enough for me. Energy is high but not nutso.

Well if you know me, computers are not my thing. Nor the techiness of them. But with a little research, I figured out how to make the pacific time go to eastern. (Yea and hi5!) Believe me, that is big in my world. I am learning little by little about all those things that I have very little interest in. Growing, expanding my horizon, if you will.

Sleep these days seem to be hard to come by though. Not sure if it is new found energies or the fact that spring is just around the corner. I can smell it and it hypes me. Bike season is a month away. Hopefully I will be able to pull it out sooner than that.

Well that is all I got today. The boys are wrestling in State tournaments today. I know that they will do their best. Mom will stand proud and cheer them on. Happy weekend!