Like Oprah says...Still Talking About It...Weight

Deciding to mix up the workouts a bit now. Don't want to get bored or stale. Been in the pool at least 1x a week. Wednesday was a day to run, 45min of interval running, speed walking. That felt good. Today going to a new place for kick boxing. Not too excited about it but Bon wants me to try it with her. So off I go. Need to keep the pace.

Met up with a patient the other day and she commented how I still look good. That was nice and I must have given a look like and what do you mean by that? Well, she went on to explain that so many of her friends lose the weight especially on WW and then gain. Well I went on to explain that it is not a diet it is a lifestyle. Diets don't work. She asked if I eat cookies? Hell ya I eat cookies, just not the whole bag! Moderation key. Which leads me to another thing. There are people out there that are filling kids with crab in their heads. Making them stress about weight at a young age. Don;t get me wrong, I need to be concern. But when my kid is in tears because he is not sure if he can eat a soft pretzel or not, there is a problem. Trying to deprogram them into understanding the needs for ALL food groups. Telling them that a soft pretzel is a form of a carb (not necessarily the best one) but a carb no less. And your body does require that too. Deny the body of it and when you do eat one, you will tend to eat two too many and whoops. Moderation is the key. Trying to instill that we EAT to fill the need and we EXERCISE to fill a need. Hoping and praying that keeping them moving and having the right foods in the house. Not stressing on what the scale says but how we feel and look (in those jeans). That one was for you Joe. Eat right and exercise feeds body and mind. Get with God fills the spirit. We need them all especially NOW!

Waking Up Cold

I think that winter may be getting to me a bit. Sick of waking up cold and remaining cold through the day. I love that feeling of getting out of the shower and I don't have to run to put a robe on. Some things that are getting me through this time of year is that~ I am busy. I mean truly busy. Maybe even too busy. Working four days and running kids to practice and me to the gym. House gets cleaned on weekend because I am too exhausted in the week. Trying to plan a wedding that won't break the bank. Making sure that the kids are happy and healthy. Maintaining my weight on top of it. Whew I am tired. I look back when the kids where younger and I had to do more for them. I thought that I was busy than. Maybe now I place more priority on me. What makes me happy and healthy. Before it was just the kids and if I had time, maybe me. If there was time or energy left over. I know now the benefits of a happy mom. I am happy with who I have become. Knowing that I am not liked by all but being ok with that. Ah that is a great accomplishment. I use to hate the winters and now I at least tolerate them. Depression has some what gone away. That is a growth thing too. Still wish I was off to Florida in the next couple of weeks but not this year. Plan a little get away for a day~would be nice but nothing in stone yet. I m ok. And that is a good feeling!

What is Important?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9YU0aNAHXP0&feature=related



Makes me think of what is really important and what is just stuff. Enjoy!

To Love...To Be Loved...All Choices

I learned very early in life that love is not a feeling, it is a decision. Thanks to my parents and their relationship. We decide who we let in and who we let walk away. I know that I have made some decisions that are going to be challenging but I am not afraid. I have done the homework and I know that it is for a lifetime. I could walk in this world alone, which I have done for some time and done quite successful. But I recently choose to go it together. Isn't it easier when you have someone to laugh with and cry with. Someone to go to bed with and wake with. Someone to wipe your tears of happiness and sadness. It just seems easier. Oh I am very aware that I always had someone on my side. Someone I know who never leaves. It is through him that I could live again and hope for a new future.

Life has provided me with many twists and turns. As long as I continue down this journey, I will stumble and fall but I do know how to get back up. Attitude is 90%. I have seen this mostly recently through my father. Faced with difficult things but decided right out of the gate that this will not get me down. Many great examples, many seeds planted in my life to know that there is hope in all. I feel good where I stand. I feel confident in my choice. Together choices made...forever! Amen.

Putting Faith Where It Should Be

Looking back on a journey, a journey that began long before I even knew that I would be on one. Many twist and turns that I didn't anticipate. Ask me before and I would have told you that I would be married to the same man for eternity. But things change and so do people. I have changed because of forced to in the beginning. Now I change for it is the right thing to do. I would never be where I am at right now if I was given the choice. I am truly thankful for that song that goes "Thank God for Unanswered Prayers." Because if it was in my hands, many many years ago, I would have stayed and not grown. I would not know the Lord like I do today. I would not let go in the things that I have no control over. I would be stuck. I know now that "He" knew this about me. I am thankful "He" took control of an uncontrollable situation and started "His work" in me. Put faith in "Him" and you will not be alone. I truly believe this. Bible thumper no way. I just believe. I believe that he has guided me on where I am today. Faith that "He" knows where I am going and where I will end up. Crazy to take the next step? Na don't think so. I know the truth. We know. Know that "He comes first", and we believe!

Resolutions

Baby its cold outside. That is an understatement. Snow fell yesterday and I have yet to remove it. Too cold to do that and today looks like it will stay also. Work and workout to follow tonite. No time to bare that extreme temp. It isn't going anywhere right? At least not for a couple days.
Been marking my list of resolutions and I can cross another one off. I talked to my boss yesterday and I have officially moved to the full time status. I will be working three full days and one until 2pm. For those who don't know in the dental world~we only work Monday thru Thursday. So I will be sacrificing a lunch on Thursday to get out at 2. I think~a good trade off. I have been pretty much doing the four days but usually had a week when I said I would take off. Scary yea. I know to you forty hour guys that is cake but to me who has never really worked for more than thirty two~it is a big deal. I recall when first out of school, I did do four and half days but that was short lived. Worried abit but it is time to make this move. Not too much worried about the money~God has always provided and well. Just need to make it official so that it is in my schedule. It is what I do now. Very important to know what I am doing and when. Well time to go schedule is calling me and I need to warm up the car today BRRR!

Mind Lead...Body Follow!

Going over the plan of attack on Sunday of when and what days we are going to work out. That has been great. It is called accountability. We (Cas and I) both decide what will work for working out and we just do it. There is no excuses. For me, I need to have a scheduled plan. I am no fly by the seat of my pants kind of girl. And guess what~I am ok with that. With a schedule comes responsibility that this will happen and there is little reason why it shouldn't work.
Mondays seem to be a good beginning to the week. So if the weekend fell a bit short, we do a hard workout on Monday. I gave my all today and feel great for doing it. I am tired and should sleep good. Putting my mind to it...body does feel it. And it feel good. Love my new life!

Setting some New Goals.

Decided to hit the gym early today. Giving Casey the day off. Ha ha. Going to put 3miles on the treadmill ever if it kills me. It did kill me and then right to the bike~7 miles. Was then going to go swim a couple of laps but time made me stop. Wow triathlon not so sure about it. That is alot of work but need to set some bigger goals. Working on endurance. Breathing is hard when it comes to swimming. The good thing about this race is that I just have to finish. No times are required. First one so any time is a good time. Hmm. That makes it at least doable. And isn;t that what it is all about. Just trying, setting some goals and doing your best to accomplish it. Yep I think so.

Feeling good about life and where I stand. That is a good feeling. Looking for fresh snow to go cross country skiing. Looking ahead to the calender lots coming up and January is half over already. All in attitude isn't it? I think so.

Let the List Begin

Starting to make a list of things that have to get done. They don't seem to get done by just waiting and now things are piling up. If I don't write a list they will never get done. This week has been filled with going to the gym. That was a priority because I wanted to motivate. But now I look at my list and I think I need to tackle some of that this weekend.

It is 5 in the morning and already the day is full of have too's. Weekend for rest; nope returns today before the store close up on me, wrestling on Sat and church on Sun. That is going to be the way it is for the next couple of weeks. Trying not to feel that overwhelm. If I break it up it is all doable. That is another resolution, take things on in small chunks instead of the whole. Breath deeply and say a little prayer and it will all be fine. See I even now feel better. Writing it down seems to help too. And when it all fails call mom and dad~no wait they will be in Florida soon. It is all fun and games in Florida. I know I have been there and it is sunny to boot. You go guys. Wishing I had a little getaway planned this winter but none as of now. But there is always time to throw caution to the wind and go. You just never know with me. I have been known to go to Florida for a weekend wedding that I never received an invitation too. Ha ha. That was fun! Well time to make my list. It is getting late and I need to move. Thanks for the ear.

Time Well Spent

Starting to see results. I have been on a mission to get my kids moving, especially my daughter. Yesterday was a good day, no the last two days have been good. We went to Delta as planned and swimming was method of exercise. We both had a great time. It was something that made us move and play at the same time. I think it is bringing us closer. I hope. Such a touchy time of life right now.

Found out that in doing a sprint triathlon, that you have to swim one fourth of a mile. Well that is 9 laps. OK I was fine with that until I asked the lifeguard yesterday what a lap was. It is there and back. OMG I am going to die! Sunday I did 20 laps with much resting in between. Yesterday, I went 2 laps with no break. That really kills your lungs. Talk to a few people about gaining endurance. Keep working on breathing and it all will fall in place. Did some weight resistance in the current pool. Had Cas hold on to my waist as I walked backwards in the lazy river and then we switched as I held on to her. Then we played chase and if she caught me I would give her minutes for her phone. Ahh I found a motivator. Ha ha.

We both agreed to go back on Wednesday. I am glad that I am not pulling teeth so much now. Maybe just maybe she is actually enjoying our time too. Good feeling. Abit sore today. Stomach crunches tonite. She going to love me for sure!

Choices??????? We All Have Them

What to do when you walk away? Nope had your chance and that time has gone. Gave you every reason to stay. Choices~we all have them and now it's my time to take a stand. This is my home and what I say goes for the most part. We are a family that can voice our opinions and I have the final say. Get that! You chose your way and it is time you come to grips with that.

Calm cool and collective. That is another new years resolution. I am going to try to keep the yelling to a minimal. That is hard one. They are old enough to understand the whats and who's and the consequences of their actions. And in dealing with others ~deep breaths and know that I am the head of THIS household! AMEN

Will It Matter?

What are my new resolutions? Hmm Thought I should ponder a bit about this one. I seem to ask my patients this questions right around this time of year. And a few times they even seem to ask me. I have been giving this a lot of thought. I want to maintain the weight I currently am. Well no actual need to lose the 5 that I have put on this last couple of months. I am trying to be able to incorporate the things I want to eat (in moderation). Too the things that skinny or fit people eat. Fine line indeed. I know this is my lifelong commitment so I want to eat ice cream when I want too.

Exercising has slowed a bit but I am back on track. Went for a 2 mile run this morning and 30 minutes on the gazelle. Portion control needs to get a second glance from me. Went to the fruit market instead of the grocery store because will buy less junk there because it costs more. More fruits and veggies are the options.

Wrestling for the boys start officially tomorrow and need to have travel friendly foods available. Want to have healthy options because it is good when they are wrestling and people do take notice to what you put in your mouth especially after you lose the weight. In this case keeping up with the Jones is a good thing. It is so much easier if you have prepared all your foods for easy access. Do you have realize how many times you come home starving only to grab some chips or pretzels? If the veggies are all cut up would we grab those? Hmmm I am hoping so. Which leads me into a resolution...Change my kids mind about what they (we) put in our mouths. Went through the cupboard and got rid of the junk from the holidays. Snacks that are left are packaged in snack bags which are in serving sizes. If the kids thought it was bad before the holidays with nothing in the house to eat. Just wait. Don't be surprise if they call you up to come over. But it is time to make more of point. Planning on sitting down with them and working out a schedule for when we can make it to Delta to work out. Want to make it there with kids at least 2x. Now that may not work but it is a plan. Another plan is having them make a menu with me. Sick and tire (isn;t that funny how sick is always followed with tired) them saying that they don't want this or that. I hate trying to plan what we are going to eat. I would be happy with chix and salad everyday. But that only goes over once a week soo. Need some help there. Feeling good about some of my resolutions for 09. Hmm and I didn't think I had made any.

Year in

Well one whole year and a day when the written part of my journey began. Hard to believe. Oh yeah it started long before a year ago. I know that. I am just now trying to figure out the who and whys of Denise? Complex to some-not to others. This might sound strange but I know that I am here to do great things. I believe that I have already but more is yet to be seen. Aren't we all? Do we ever really find out our worth? Do we ever give credit when credit is do? I have found out in the past that you and only you can give that much needed pat. I have come to believe that it is wanted and needed.



On my run this morning, I thought about the past year; the good, the bad and the ugly. Crazy that days went by that I didn't think I could come down from the cloud I was on. Then it hit like a ton of bricks; heartache, depression and despair. Funny that those time just seem to ground me again. Knowing that with joy comes hurt and love-heartache. Cycle of life I think. To go up you must come down. But knowing in the depths there is hope!



All is truly good. Knowing worth is good. Welcoming 09 to more of my journey. Stumble oh yes but never out for the count.