Not going to win mother of the year award again this year. Heck I don't think I am going to even qualify for parent of the year.
What to do when you are not really liked by your kids. Hmm that is a tough one. Will they get it someday? Will they understand why I do and did the things I did. Hmm I hope so. Divorce in general does suck. For kids that seem to love both parents, it sucks more. Right now on so many levels, I am the bad one. And even knowing that I need to do certain things to protect me, hurts them. Boundaries that should have been in place a long time ago are finding a spot. Change is happening and it should. One may view this as a bad thing, all in the timing. Maybe knowing that I now have one to rely on makes steps easier. Maybe realizing I had the power all this time and finding the strength through God to make it all happen? Trusting that He will bring us through. Still very hard to give it up all to Him. Work in progress.
I am a good mom. Maybe not seen today but someday. Will it matter in 20yrs? Na I only hope that my kids are healthy and happy.
Struggling and breathing deep.
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it's not about who wins, its who is walking God's way. Only those who know Him can make the walk, but it us who need to let others know about Him. We do that in our actions and purposes. When doubt enters the mind we must challenge it with His word and pray. We will be victorious in HIM
The gifts have been given to you use them and trust your gut. You are not always a friend but you are always a parent. Love them.
Were your parents always right in your eyes? Mine sure weren't in mine. Now you appreciate them, but I'm sure you disagreed with them years ago. Don't worry so much about "what will happen someday" that all takes care of itself. You just need to show respect and love from you.
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