Head spinning

Wow and the race begins. Well it is always in process but this week especially was crazy. I have officially colored coded by calender with red, blue and green. Colors for each kids. Im still in regular pen and Joe and his kids don't have a special color yet. May was filled before I turned the page from April.
I will be living at the ball field everyday. I have decided that KC will have one day in the week to do what ever she wants and I will follow her doing that. We already did a shop day last week. There are things that she wants and I told her that I have spent X amount on the boys sports and she can go shopping with some of that. We talked about her starting a flower garden that is hers to work up and get the flowers and attend too. It will be outside her window and she seemed to like that idea. Went to a meeting at school and in 8th grade they go to Washington DC and the cost is 695. I talked to her and I feel that she needs to raise at least on third of the trip. I haven't talked to the dad on this one yet. UGH! Ideas that have been coming up are pop can collection, door to door or watch your email. Babysitting I think would be great or walking animals for people at work. Trying to get her to take initiative I want her to break out there. Was I the one to stay in the shadow and not go out and pursue? I babysat all the time I remember. I was trying to remember what I did at her age. I babysat alot. I rode my bike a lot. It was a different time but. I know my parents didn't hand out the money left and right. In the area that I live that is what people do here. Money is not lacking when it comes to the kids. I think that can be a downer. Am I depriving them of stuff or trying to instill the point that you have to work to make money and save!
Baseball pictures where yesterday and I didn't get them taken. But I did bring my camera. I did get a shot of them in the same setting that everyone else did. But was I looked down a bit well not sure. Do I look like the cheap mom sometimes in my kids eyes. Do I care. If they get the whole concept in the long run I don't care. Do my kids suffer I don't think so. We went for ice cream last nite when I knew very well that there is some in the freezer and it is the same kind that they are going to order. No suffering there.
Well I am rambling and that just shows where the whole month of May will be. Crazy and overwhelming. It will all get done and I know if I only look ahead for one day I will be ok. Any further I will need a shovel. So if you don;t hear from me don't worry but call me on my cell I am around. P.s I got my dress!