Finished race two. It was a hard one because it was 48 degrees and raining. But it wasn't about placing or taking any medals. It was about finishing and getting in a workout. That is what it has always been for me. Doing something new and enjoying it. Finishing a race that started many moons ago. Plain and simple, keeping the weight off.
It has been two years since I decided that it was time to get in shape again. Two years is generally the time that those who have lost weight fall off the wagon. If it is a diet and not a way of life. Believe me when I say it is easy to lose, hard to maintain.
But is it? Well no if you know that you have to move everyday. When your schedule gets lost in run here and do that and eat on the run, that is when your fitness suffers. I know that I need to take a look at where I stand. In the last two years I have given myself the permission to take care of me. Some have viewed it as selfish but they don' t sit where I sit. Is it selfish to want to see your kids grow old enough to get married and have your grand kids...well I am selfish. I need to reevaluate things again. I need to focus on the life long commitment I made to myself on that February day. The day I vowed to change my life. It is ok to say no. It is ok to ask for help. It is ok to do for me, for that makes me a better for them. I want them to know that it is not necessary to get lost in your kids but strong in yourself. Doing everything for them and nothing for you can lead to where did it all go when they are gone. I don't want to regret. I want them to remember how strong I am. I want them to see it is all in the journey not the destination. It is worth all the blood sweat and tears. Let them see that no one can make you happy, it is up to you. It starts from within. Believe that you where created with purpose and you have all the choices in the world. In the end, pray you make the right ones!
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If YOU don't come first the rest will have a problem. Get the car pool going, ride your bike to the games or work for that matter, and get the crock pot working! I was surprised when Joe said he didn't have time...it was one of your priorities that kept you motivated.
Re-focus, you are not going backwards now, too much to lose.
we can help each other. That is what partners are for. A workout can be busting our butts in the yard, push instead of ride the lawn mower, spade the garden, clean out the back tree line, repaint the porch, clean out the p-barn. LOTS of activity that will burn carbs, and run/ bike for cardio.
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