When To Block?

It seems in a technical world things would be easier? Not so sure of that. With communication at our fingertips what a wonderful thing. But there are those out there that want to hurt or sabotage what is said or unsaid...to block if you will the good that is being said or related. Why? Freedom of speech ya but come on can't we all just get along~or if we can't-just shut up.

Clean your Room!

Woke up this morning to thunder and lighting and a nite mare. What is up with that? I can't remember the last time I dreamt(is that a word). And to wake to a nite mare~wow. What does that mean? Well as I laid there trying to shake the dream, I ponder what was going on in my life. Then I was quickly reminded that when my room is a mess so is my life. I need to do a little house work. I find that a messy disarray house or room is just that~a foggy head. When life is just a little off~so is my room. Time to reorganize.

Coming off a weeks vacation with kids. Laundry up the ying. Getting back to a schedule and making it all fit. Life a bit crazy here. Just need a little time to refresh and remember what I am doing and where I am going. Refocus if you will.

Looking forward to a weekend with not alot of havetados! Stop by I will probably be cleaning or dwelling in my clean house. And a more focused me!

Mid Life Crisis...Bring it On!

Well as I ran last nite, I was reminded that some think it is a mid life crisis that I am going through. Many who ask about my journey simply ask and when will you be 40?;or oh how old are you?~hmmm that is why. I think to myself~do people really view this all as a bad thing? Trying to get in shape for the next half of my life~Is that viewed as a bad thing? Trying to become closer to God and what he has planned for me~a bad thing? Trying to put the positive back into Polly~bad thing?
Searching for a partner for the rest of my life~a bad thing?

Well mind,body and spirit, I want it all and am not stopping til I get it. To all those who view this as a negative-sorry that you feel that way. Maybe you need to take inventory. I have never felt more alive, more positive about myself and where I am in life. I am secure in who I am and what I want. What a wonderful feeling. I owe all of this to seeds that where planted intentionally and unintentional. The road is set and it is up to me which way I travel. With prayer, I hope to always take the high one. It seems to have done me well in the past.

New friends coming along on my journey have purpose. True friends that have stuck by me through the rough waters have purpose. I am truly blessed. I feel loved daily through hugs,emails,winks and even texts. I thank you all who don't question and just except. I am even thank ful to those who question for they keep me on my toes. Today I feel BLESSED! Continue on with me. It will surely be interesting. Have you started your journey? Do you want to? Do you even care? Ah pondering what a wonderful thing.

Time Too... Back on Track

Well it seems to me that I have stepped out of my scheduled and ordinary. Sometimes we get caught up with the exciting and new that we forget that the ordinary has a sense of calm to it that we miss. Scared oh yea that too. New can be so scarey. New can be like buying shoes; oh they look really good in the window. You try them on and yea they fit good. You look at the price and think ah a bit pricey but still affordable. So you buy them knowing full well that you can return them... until you wear them outside~then there yours. So you wear them and wear them alot and hope just hope that they don't give you a blister! Scary yea new can be scary. But


It can also be something you needed. Willing to take chances and hope that something good comes out of them. Why do we get so cautious when we get a little older? Are we so blind to the world in our 20's that we just jump in head first with out a second thought? And now being almost 40's why do we just stay planted where we are? Afraid of getting hurt? Afraid to trust? Maybe now we have more to think about then just "me". More vested? Oh great back to pondering.

Something To Be Said...Comfort Zone?

Well I just got done with 4 miles of running in good old Michigan. Wow that was pretty easy! Is is true that we are definitely programed to Old and Familiar and good and comfortable?

You would think being in the warm and sunny, would make you run more? Oh not so true. I started out warm and clammy and only got hotter. Oh it felt good to really sweat but I was definitely out of my element. The grounds where unfamiliar and the terrain was just different. Out of my box, if you will. I have talked about being out of the box as a good thing and for the most part it can be. But change is scary at times. Not sure of the outcomes; positive or negatives ones.

I am glad to be home and get back to my routine. I am comfortable there and want to stay there for a while until I need to up my program again. I do see that in the near future. I am glad to be back and look forward to all your comments. Keep them coming, they inspire me also!

Coming Home

Well it has been a fun filled week,but its time too come home. This vacation was not like the one I had 6 weeks ago but I enjoyed the kids on roller coasters and water rides. I too enjoyed the fun at the parks. I even found some confidence wearing a bikini out in public. Oh yea that can be a confidence builder in a heart beat.

It is amazing what a little bit of sunshine and warmth will do u. I am ready to come home and bring a little sunshine back to you winter filled people. I will continue my journey in running and exercising. I want to continue the energy high that is a bit diminished right now. Vacation is over and routine is too be put back in place. There is something to be said about scheduled and a routine. There is a sense of comfort in which I long for.

I can't wait to see some faces that I have missed. Riding season is fast upon us and Im looking forward too the wind in my face. It is going to be a great summer and I look forward to new adventures with old and new friends. i love ya all and will see ya soon.

Don't Be Fooled.

This is one day that i hate the most. Oh don't get me wrong I Iike a good joke now and again, it is just those mean ones that really get to me. Growing up I was the butt of many mean jokes and they usually had the words or implications of being fat in them. I learned very quickly to put on a jolly face and just laugh it off. Be a so called friend to everyone and make everyone happy.

But life is life and we can't go around just pretending we are not hurt be cruel jokes. I have been trying real hard to put myself in others shoes. See how it feels to be on the opposite side. Sometimes not a bad place to be. sometimes wouldn't wish it on my enemy. Why do we have to be so mean? Is it a defense mechanism? Are we afraid of what we might see? Who we truly are?


Why do we expose ourselves to some and not too others? What are we afraid of? Pondering again. And Im supposed to be on vacation. Worried free.