Pondering

As I sat talking to a patient, I was reminded why we do what we do. I have given my working out much thought lately. Why do we do it? Why do others not? Do we feel any better for doing it? Do others care or is it only suppose to be for us? Will it make a difference in today or tomorrow?
Putting in a lot of effort for something that is so important to me. When I don't work out even for a day I feel sluggish. I feel more tired. I feel like I have let myself down. Wouldn't it be so easy to just sit on the couch? Eat what ever I want? At times that is what I want to do but guilt sets in. Good, bad not so sure. I am waking up sore today. Sunday put in a 5 mile run and yesterday a 50 lap swim. Today I think I will go skiing. Trying to mix it up so my body responds. Feeling the winter dull drums setting in. Trying to combat that. Maybe a massage is needed? Maybe retail therapy? Need some sunshine? Oh just some early morning thoughts for a body that feels old today.